The Centaur Report for
Michael J. Fox
June 9, 1961
53 N 33 113 W 28 Tropical Placidus
Standard time observed GMT: 07:15:00
Time Zone: 7 hours West
Sun 18 Gem 12 N. Node 0 Vir 54
Moon 1 Tau 27 True Node 0 Vir 14
Mercury 9 Can 21 Asc. 18 Aqu 37
Venus 2 Tau 58 MC 14 Sag 03
Mars 18 Leo 37 Chiron 6 Pis 42
Jupiter 6 Aqu 49 Pholus 14 Aqu 53
Saturn 29 Cap 07 Nessus 28 Tau 52
Uranus 22 Leo 23 Asbolus 21 Can 21
Neptune 8 Sco 58 Chariklo 14 Aqu 44
Pluto 5 Vir 40 Hylonome 0 Gem 46
Aspects and orbs:
Conjunction : 5 Deg 00 Min Trine : 4 Deg 00 Min
Opposition : 5 Deg 00 Min Sextile : 3 Deg 00 Min
Square : 4 Deg 00 Min Quincunx : 3 Deg 00 Min
Introduction to the Centaur Report
This interpretation of your chart focuses on Centaurs. Centaurs are asteroids with several properties in common, one of whichis that they travel from deep regions of our solar system to within the orbit of Jupiter. They are similar to comets but are larger. The first Centaur discovered was Chiron in the year 1977. Chiron was first thought to be a kind of planet, but is now considered a Centaur by most astronomers.
Now you might be thinking "Oh, gosh! More teensy things to consider in my horoscope. Doesn't the chart have enough going on as it is?" Consider that astrologers use one planet, Venus, to describe the vast areas of love, art, and beauty in our lives. The asteroids add depth and detail to the astrological analysis, enabling us to see more specific issues.
When the first centaur, Chiron, came to our attention, he was greeted with mixed feelings. Some considering this body, very difficult to define (planet, asteroid, comet?), saw it as a nuisance. Others remained sure of his importance. It would appear that those astrologers possessed a vision of better things to come.
Ultimately, Chiron emerged as a potent teacher, healer, shaman leading us all through previously unremovable wounds - whether psychological or spiritual. His urging to fully invest the spirit in the body and involve oneself in life now stands as the leading wave of soulful healing. His demonstration of the essentiality of relationship between body and spirit now stands accepted, intact and most importantly, significant in all of our personal healing efforts.
Now Chiron has five named centaur siblings: Pholus, Nessus, Asbolus, Chariklo and Hylonome. Suggestions exists for yet another named body, Pylenor, which is awaiting astronomical nomenclature protocols. Ultimately, all the other centaurs will receive names as well.
Each centaur appears with a solution to a common social malady of today's complicated society and associated psychological and psychic backlash. The integration of these bodies provides us with simple, consciousness-oriented ceremonies and healing techniques to enhance our coping skills. The centaurs restore our sensibilities - literally, our ability to use our senses, emotions and body perceptions - ranging from an instinctive nose to chill bumps - thereby increasing our humanness. In a time when the array of electronic communication and technology deceases our sentient involvement in our lives, the centaurs appear to restore our senses and sensibilities.
The centaur clan offers valuable attributes in our everyday life, psychological healing and spiritual growth. Consider the powerful remedies offered by these bodies:
Chiron - healing psychic wounds of rejection, restoring spirit to body
Pholus - overcoming substance abuses, restoring peacefulness of spirit, use of daily ritual
Nessus - defining need and want in money and relationship with healthy balance
Asbolus - development of and use of full intuitive faculties
Chariklo - assessing personal boundaries, both psychologically and energetically
Hylonome - healing grief and regret
As you welcome the primal gathering of centaurs into your horoscope, you will enjoy enhanced awareness of emotion, passion for life, quest for purpose and sensorial reactions to all situations. Saddle up and ride these tiny, yet potent bodies, for a celestial journey to self understanding, compassion and well being. Enjoy!
Chapter 1: Chiron
For those people feeling rejected by parents and carry that banner throughout life, relief is near. Should you be sensing wounds that simply will not leave not matter what is done, a solution stands near. And if feelings of displacement, alienation and disconnection prevail within yourself, the healer has arrived. Soon, with use of the essence of this relatively new healer, Chiron, the way clears for a stronger sense of self with spirit invested in body. This sense of self works to reestablish healthy relationships with others.
Chiron was the wounded healer, or the healer who wounds. His mode of healing works to bring up the hidden issues, overcome denial, offer penance, then go on in greatness. He was one of the immortals, with a god as a father who rejected the son. The mother disowned him because of his ugliness (half man, half horse). With no place to go, Chiron became an avid learner studying with the great ones, devouring all knowledge. Accidentally wounded at an event of using ceremonial wine unceremoniously, his immortality became a liability as the healer could not heal his own wound. He persisted in life feeling pain that he, the healer, could not heal. His pain includes parental rejection, unworthiness and in today's terms, soul loss.
Chiron opted to end the eternal pain at all costs. He took a voluntary task in the underworld, coming out with the ability to ascend to the heavens as granted by Zeus (Jupiter). He represents being able to take on healing directly, clearly and intently. He symbolizes our willingness to go into the caves of consciousness and examine our nature. He grieves, then heals. This powerful healer comes before us encouraging the clearing of all things within our psyche. After this occurs the path opens for our spirits to fully fuse with our physical being.
Chiron Trine Mercury:
You're a bit like the ancient Hindu poet, Rumi. Your words flow out of you like a river of inspiration and soothing healing. You could be an expert in word sounds, like replacing harsh sounding words with smooth sounding words. With onomatopoetic ease you issue gentle breezes with your words and thoughts. Actually, this comes a bit too easily to you. You might undervalue this gift because it seems so simple, obvious and matter of fact. But it is no such thing. You have the ability to find flawed thoughts in others. These ideas become exorcized with your healing articulation. You then offer others replacement thoughts easing their troubled minds. You blanket them with phrases of reassurance. You render verbal strokes of absolution. This gift is strong. Should you choose to write your images, thoughts and inspirations, many people you will never meet stand to benefit. Take some time to examine why you wouldn't do this. Then savor the ideas as to why you would.
Chiron Trine Neptune:
You have a free pass to travel into the heavens whenever you want. Your consciousness drifts in and out of your being without the need for any passport. Simply you get to take your attitudes and emotions on refreshing spirit driven vacation many times a day. This way you stay invigorated, attentive and involved in your life. While you're traveling take some time to notice directives, ceremonies and healing rituals that come to mind in those lofty, inspired places. It would recommended that these be brought back with you. Should you explore the full extent of these insightful gifts, you'll find your involvement in the real world getting easier. Thus you need less of the escapist type of reverie. You spirit driven retreats into the ethers maintain more of defined quality. They, too, become more powerful. You probably are beginning to realize that you can create awesome incantations, chants, songs, prayers, affirmations and ceremonies for yourself and the rest of the planet. Raise your spirit. Raise your voice. Raise the rafters.
Chiron Opposition Pluto:
The teachers come to you. Usually you can't remember asking for one. But nonetheless, here's the big kahuna and with a huge bag of tricks. Come on down and play the teacher says. Like you have a choice. You are fully aware no real option exists here. This teacher might even tell you they were sent to you. They don't ask. They tell. Go for it. If you don't, the sink of life clogs forcing a call to the ultimate plumber. This process seems like a broken record. Bear in mind previous teachers/healers/mentors do not abandon you. They simply plop you down in a place where the next one can find you. This aspect actually contains many blessings. Whenever a life difficulty becomes insurmountable, the teacher with the greatest expertise in the problem area magically appears. Part of the good karma profile, the tasks before you require constant, intentional work. The benefits come in the form of metamorphic transformations as if a million butterflies store their magic in your spirit. Next thing you know, you'll have at your fingertips the ability to pop open the tightly woven cocoons of others.
Chapter 2: Pholus
Perhaps a sense of listlessness in life encourages one to eat too much or too little. Maybe even taking on alcohol or other substance as a substitute for contentment becomes the way one copes. The Centaur Pholus appears to remind us of what it is that actually lay beneath these physical urges to compensate or over-compensate in life.
Pholus appears at just the right time to remind people of the needs of spirit. While he signifies everything about food and drink, he also stresses the idea that all things intending to nurture our beings remain powerful ceremonies. Pholus indicates diet patterns, especially methods of cooking and even the type of diet including carnivorous or vegetarian ways. His attitude toward drink, most especially alcohol, insists that it be offered ceremoniously. The custom of toasting with wine (or whatever is the alcohol of choice) comes from Pholus. Blessing food symbolizes a Pholus thought. He represents use or abuse of all physical substances, alcohol being the most significant of his concerns.
Ultimately Pholus reminds us of the need to fill our daily lives with those things that are good -and only good - for us. He establishes awareness of necessary limits and requirements. He goes even further in that he offers the reminder (and often a stern one) that your daily routine must include your spiritual drill: saying grace, toasting, a daily meditation, smudging, ceremonial cleansing or whatever comes under his wise and watchful eye. Should things feel out of sorts, offer simpler, reverent acts every day. Watch the restlessness subside and the sense of well being begin.
Pholus Trine Sun:
Ceremony could be your middle name. Is there anything you'd rather do? Probably not. So you imagine, create and conjure a way of honoring whatever it is you choose to revere. Since the energy windows for such celebrations receive infinite support from your energy, these things can get out of hand. Similarly, some idea of the margins of moderation would be good to hold in mind. The phrase, "the road to hell is paved with good intentions," applies to you. Your celebrations and ceremonies mean well. You can only account for your own intent and participation. Make some careful assessment of what folks should be invited. After all, you do not know their capacity to cope with ceremonial fervor. Yet, you invoke the powers with effortless elucidation. You inspire others. You nurture the spiritually hungry with good food and cheer. An excellent idea for your portfolio of ceremonies would be to establish grades of experience. Make sure each participant has taken all necessary prerequisite courses. As far as your personal work goes, push yourself. Know what courses you've completed as well. If necessary reread your dogma diploma. You won't set yourself back.
Pholus Opposition Mars:
So, you can justify anything you want to do. Only one place doesn't buy your circuitous rationalizing ramble - that would be within your deepest core. Your raw, primal soul urge seeks to override all other instincts. Short-term gratification falls to those things that support the eternal endurance of spiritual sustenance. Every effort goes into the things that you know fall under the label of good. Your focus secretly desires to learn the perfect proportion of minimal energy needed to accomplish whatever task lies at hand. Efficiency of energetic use regulates your desire for awareness. Use enough of your energy to ensure successful acquisition of your needs. Offer absolutely no more effort than needed. While you naturally tend to overdo, observe sports figures. Every time emotional intensity exceeds physical ability they fall flat on their face. No over throwing your energy. In the same way, waste no time nor effort acquiring any more than you can possibly handle. Be the master of a tai chi-like approach to life. Invest enough, never more. Open no can of food, whether symbolic or otherwise, unless you intend to eat promptly.
Pholus Conjunct Asc.:
On the most basic level people expect you to know the best restaurants, the finest wines and the best trainer at the local health club. Your aura radiates refinement, good taste and style. Within the realm of spirituality and transformation, these same people expect you to guide them to the right seminars, leading edge teachers and power places on Earth. Again, they seem to think you do your work. Do you? You know every act you consciously conduct in life intends to make your life better. Whether wearing a fabric that feels good on your body, splurging on a fragrance with an exquisite smell, you go for it. You make a case that these things that encourage a sense of physical well-being contribute to your soul's sense of good. This would be true. And remember to include the best of ceremony and ritual in each act of goodness as well. Then the face you display to others looks credible. You are seen without facade. You can cheerfully share the things that work for you so well. The good resource desk is open.
Pholus Sextile MC:
Menu planning, exercise programs, coordinating wine tasting and even work as a professional nose suit you. This latter feature implies perfume tester, coffee sniffer or just knowing if the sour cream is more than naturally sour come with your olfactory sense. But the big news of your pattern is the uncanny ability to be able to develop something ritualistically to meet the need at hand. The amazing thing is, when people do the drill you imagine, they feel better regardless of belief. Doubt yields to a strangely placed (or so you think) faith in you. Your tendency would be to loosely toss an idea at someone and let them go on their way. Your participation surely impacts the procedure favorably. On your own behalf, when you imagine the ceremonies of restoring bliss in your life, try and make them physically enacted. While sniffing the world's best wine overloads your nose, it does not fill your being with the full sensation until total ingestion and assimilation occurs. So it's true with your spiritual drill as well. Just hammer it out.
Chapter 3: Nessus
It's been said that money and sex are only important when you don't have them. Whether or not this is true is up for grabs. But what we can derive from this saying is that two issues of importance to the human spirit are money and sex. In fact, under extreme circumstances, people can be observed demonstrating the best and worst of human characteristics with these issues at hand. Witness the excited glow of a lottery winner. Look hard to see the collapsed aura of a person dealing with insurmountable debt. Examine the fractured aura of a lover rejected for a younger more attractive partner. Consider the radiant glow of someone newly in love. Watch what happens as people discover that they simply cannot live without a certain thing, economic status or the love person in their life. These issues receive impeccable clarification from the Centaur Nessus.
Nessus refers to a level of desire that goes beyond need. Wanting more, coveting or even qualities of lust fall under his influence. Nessus refers to the two juicy areas of life: monetary matters and intimate relationships. He seeks out the things you unconsciously want but might not be able to articulate. He notes those things you feel you do not deserve, yet crave. First, though, he uncovers urges and desires that may not feel comfortable to your "I am a good person," belief system. But he transforms all negatives if given a chance. He works with you to ensure you enjoy the bounty of your relationship with healthy abundance. Nessus observes your financial state in life, then offers his position on what would really make you feel good in an unlimited way. Ultimately, Nessus' balance would be to have enough money not to need more and not so much that it consumes your time and thoughts.
Nessus is a powerful healer. He insists that you open yourself to the realm of sensuality in life. Smell flowers, taste food, feel the air, enjoy touch, savor success and feel everything fully. He provides the ultimate in healing issues of converting poverty to abundance. He brings about the exchange of lust, shame and guilt for healthy physical enjoyment of life, whether explored intimately with another or in one's relationship with the Creator.
Nessus Trine Saturn:
With a scrutinizing eye for life's in bounds/out of bounds chalk lines, you wander about seeking to create fair play everywhere you roam. No matter where you are, nor what you do, others appeal to you to share your point of view on what just happened. This expert witness ability of yours certainly holds court in your life, right? You know exactly what will work for you. You maintain an acute sense of what limits you hold over what you are willing to do. Given this strong sense, you reserve your rights to declare yes and no with insistence and gentle firmness. When it comes to work, you know how much is enough. You work to not exceed your abilities, time considerations and talents. In relational matters, the same holds true. You know what your emotional, intimate reserves allow you to do. You do not commit past your threshold of sensitivity prowess. Therefore, all your relations - work and love - tend to flow with greater ease than most people. Bear in mind that on your court of life you might not be able to see the adjacent court without distorting parallax. Of course, you have the presence of spirit to defer opinion under those conditions.
Nessus Square N. Node:
So what you know is that the money thing and the love thing remains a major juggling act in life. Each time you reach a plateau, you get this mouth watering urge for something else in life. Maybe it's the quest that fills you, not the attainment of the goal. Perhaps. Use perspective to monitor the successes accomplished. This serves to fills the gnawing in the belly that desires more and more. Unconsciously you seek the magical point of having enough, but not too much. This illusive balance, though, irons out so many wrinkles of that relentless driving force within. The image is that of knowing what it feels like to be full. When comfortably full, life can be enjoyed. When overfull, getting up from the table of the feast remains a challenge. While you love the challenge, let the fulfillment of the recent banquet digest a spell.
Chapter 4: Asbolus
Ever have one of those moments in which you went against the flash of insight you received? Such situations become more glaring if life tosses back some sort of difficulty, like exactly the one of which you were forewarned. When you feel like leading the charge up some sort of symbolic mountain to take on a perilous task, do you ever ponder what the outcome might be?
Asbolus, another of our Centaur guides, represents the best in intuitive awareness. Asbolus reflects good counsel given and not heeded, or good advice received and not heeded. Usually the results of not heeding such input become immediately apparent. The urge to veto one of those insightful flashes falls under the visionary gaze of Asbolus. The insight just seemed to be a logical projection. There was nothing psychic about it. "What are the odds of that," Asbolus nudges again. The odds seem high at the moment. He urges absolute attentiveness to futuristic impressions. Stop while you're ahead. No need to take on challenges from an unnecessary argument to death-defying tasks, nor push your personal limits. Back off, relax and contemplate.
Asbolus further represents the loss of guidance or wisdom because of alcohol. He points out how judgment, physical and otherwise, degrades when intoxicated. His alternative would suggest that when life feels all-consuming, reinvoke a ceremonial situation to clear the mind. This effort restores strong judgment that supports the spirit and reinstates the intuitive faculties to full potency. Regardless, following intuition remains his determined influence.
Asbolus Quincunx Asc.:
Learn to read the trail of life. Tracking offers you invaluable insight into your environment and the attitudes of those things in your environment. When you see animal tracks closer together, you know the attitude is casual. Wider spread and more chaotic tracks indicate a more frantic pace. They might have sensed a predator. And how are you doing with such indicators? Can you sense environments that are friendly? Can you read ambient hostility? Yes, you can. Can you take this input in without rejecting it or qualifying it against the odds? That's a little trickier. Try this simple, silly task. Whenever needing insight into your present situation, take long, lingering, deep breaths in through your nose. No need to make a big obvious deal of it. Should people think you're onto their scent, they might go for a disguising aroma in their aura. Nonetheless, you have a nose for instinctive signs. Use it. Read the trail. The sight you need is just below your eyes.
Chapter 5: Chariklo
In today's world, the term "boundary" defines the receptivity we hold to others or the resistance we put up to others. When encountering new people, what is your criteria for establishing connection? Does it work? Should you be pushing away people you'd like to have in your life, perhaps resetting your boundaries is in order. If you're experiencing conflict with a friend, family member, co-worker, boss or your mate, perhaps redefining your boundaries would help. But where do you go for understanding these instinctive urges and reactions you're having to others? Help is at hand.
Chariklo, the sea nymph wife of the powerful healer Chiron, connects you with your greater unconscious and soul urges. She represents your awareness of both your emotional and spiritual boundaries. And in so doing, she works to improve all your relationships by clarifying what is and what is not acceptable to your spirit. Your emotional boundary would be how close you permit another person to stand near you, whether consciously interacting or not. It would also show up as your claim of your physical and emotional needs from another person. She further represents your receptivity to the emotional claims/demands of another.
The spiritual boundary carries the urge for divine kinship. Here you seek someone with common causes, inspired aspirations and shared views of the Universal - a real kindred spirit. These separate boundaries may or not be the same dimension. And they might be different with every person you meet. Chariklo represents the qualities of compassion, tolerance and forgiveness in unlimited proportion. She questions intent and examines motivation in a gentle, curious manner. She encourages you to start with yourself. Check intent and motive. If it feels good, proceed. If it does not bring a warm sense within its midst, then make corrections.
She bears the sacred marriage between body and soul. Chariklo represents the wedding known as the acceptance of one's spirit by the body. She offers soul retrieval and recovery, bonding ceremonies and energetic healing as her clarity-producing gifts. This clarity opens the doors for shedding the light of understanding toward all people. Then, you are clear to become a vehicle of helping others understand their own boundaries by your shining example.
Chariklo Trine Sun:
Judge not, lest you be judged. That would surely be a motto for you to both purport and uphold. As a person, you move through life fully aware of the energetic agendas of others. You see these with the clarity of the light of day. You remain undaunted by what drives another person to transmit the energies they do. You accept it as is. You expect the same respect in return from others. The only indignation you'll ever portray is when you feel judged, criticized or condemned. Under those circumstances you come alive and take energetic measures to ensure impartiality in life. A good judge, your best rulings occur with your assessments of human nature. As a result you often get the call to explain positions of parties having lost sight of each other's energies. You have a gift of revealing the results of interpersonal energy weaving. Start with the complete weaving of all your energy spiraling around the core of your soul, aligning with your spine, in a most intricate and discrete natural pattern. Consider teaching spiritual tapestry. That would provide a good judgment on your life.
Chariklo Opposition Mars:
You believe in getting what you want. You also believe in taking no prisoners. Explain then, if you can, why those people feeling your overly focused energy claim to be incarcerated by the enveloping vibes you emit? You tend to encounter more than what you feel is your fair share of resistance from life. Probably true. You also receive more accusation of invasion, penetration, encroachment and interference than most folks. Again true. But your energy relentlessly seeks to make its point. Making a point is one thing. Creating a gaping puncture in another person's energy field remains a horse of a different color. Instead of being a runaway horse, rein your efforts in life just enough to get what you want in a placid way. When falsely accused of going over the line, you may energetically state your case. Such statements, though, are best coming with non-defensive assertions. Secure what you want with assertive (never aggressive) and tireless pursuit. Be an example of energy that never fails. Remember to reconnect with the mystery of self-empowerment with concentrated spiritual battery recharging - done in total retreat, of course.
Chariklo Conjunct Asc.:
Your energy reeks of compassion and caring. This causes others to gravitate to you as if your aura was coated with fly paper. Your nature insists that you maintain your space. As others approach, your instinct pushes them back to reserve your boundaries. This causes others to close the gap. So when others approach you seeking wisdom, expression of tolerance and even absolution, deal with them. Deal with them swiftly at a comfortable distance from your precious and sensitive center. When done, simply excuse them. Done politely, they respond favorably. Your healing nature radiates about you. There's nothing you can do about it. Realizing that this soothing vibration comes from your tolerant core, do what you can to tolerate the conditions it creates. And there will be times you simply cannot be available. Your answer during these times is "Not now," which sounds vastly different than a curt, "No." People expect you to know certain mysteries and hidden truths. The question always on your mind as you answer the questions coming your way, is if you're really on to something or just making it up. Consider these images just a matter of recall.
Chariklo Sextile MC:
Gifted at creating physical ways of resolving emotional and spiritual disagreements, people come to expect this of you. You know how to get in there. Stepping right into the middle of brawling sailors - from a symbolic point of view of course - poses no discomfort to you. You create visual demonstrations of energy. You show people the physical reality of vibes. And you indicate what happens when energies collide incompatibly. Your skills of resolution work wonders. When this job gets done, don't stick around. While the dinner invitations and "Come be our buddy," overtures seem harmless, they can further enmesh you. Better to go home. Clean up using your favorite psychic cleansers. Get together with someone whose energy merges beautifully with yours. Have a good meal. You know the ceremony of energetic bonding that follows, don't you? If you don't, get with your partner and read this book out loud to your lover. Some of the pictures cannot be explained. Like your work with others, "show and tell" puts school in session.
Chapter 6: Hylonome
When losses of life, failures or those things not attained override one's sense of hope, the Centaur Hylonome receives a request for appearance. Should the fiscal losses and relational despair feel overwhelming, call out to this feminine Centuar. When distraught over the ending of a relationship in which you had no control over the outcome, use Hylonome.
Hylonome lost her mate during a Centaurian debacle. She was so distressed and unwilling to cope after his death, that she thrust herself on the spear that killed him. So, she appears in our lives not as an indication of hopelessness, but to provide the will to overcome the mountain of insurmountable grief. She appears to provide hope in the darkness of loss. She encourages grief, howsoever painful. She promises that if you let yourself feel the scary feelings of personal, emotionally thick endings, that you will, in time, feel relief.
Whether consciously or not, persons with strong Hylonome aspects function, function as grief counselors. They offer hope and encouragement to all downtrodden sorts. Of course, to be able to render such precise care, they first must have shed the negativity of all losses perceived in their own life first. These people encourage rebuilding of self-esteem, repair diminished egos and point out a healthy spiritual self-sufficiency.
Hylonome Trine Saturn:
It's not that hard. In fact, it's not hard at all to release negative, hurtful feelings of loss. You're one of the first to point out that ceremony becomes the cornerstone of recreating a consciousness of celebration. You indicate that people make a choice. You can work with what you've been taught that this feeling reflects doom, ending and failure. Or, you can choose to know that time and circumstance has run its course. That being the case, the closure at hand is good one. You teach methods, applications and acts of ceremony that promote successful letting go. You demonstrate the spiritual art of recapitulation - surrendering consciously to the emotional inevitability at hand. Usually with a process or ritual done conducted in the great outdoors you cut through your own resistance to the emotional progress of life. Similarly, you become the expert guide in the wilderness. You assist others on the trail of recovering lost signs of life and restoring the return to the cave of conscious love. You are the guide who never gets lost.
Hylonome Square N. Node:
Every now and then you must clear your emotional table. Like dumping a bag upside down on the floor you go through all the feelings that add a sense of heaviness to your life. You explore, sense and process the reactions that clog your urge for destiny. No where in this suggestion does intellectual examination reside. These are feelings, no doubt about it. You seek to restore your sense of belonging to the planet, regardless what adversity you have come to know. Any losses that run your heart through a ringer lower your will to do the things you know you must do. You must do these tasks to fulfill that sense of purposefulness that so often racks your inner foundations. No loss - even the most extreme - can shake the foundation of the urges within your spirit. Given any loss, or while encountering any loss (job, car, friend, lover) reset your sights on the thing that feeds the urges of your soul. Life is about manifesting destiny. Manifest it, regardless, of the dimension of feeling in your life. Be at least three dimensional.